| | Current Music: | Madison watching spongebob | | Current Location: | home | | Subject: | stuff | | Time: | 12:52 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/angry.gif) rushed |
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| -Kristin gets married on Saturday. Donald is a groomsman, Im the matron of honor, Madison and Ruby are FLOWERGIRLS. Shit is going to be wild. I hope I stay sane and get everything done that needs to be. I just painted the girls toes and nails, we played beauty shop. Dresses and shoes are done, now I just have to let go of the fact that they might not be perfect little angels and be the awesome ladies they are. Im kind of really excited to see some of my relatives and friends that are coming.
-I missed the "green our vaccines" rally this morning in DC. I had VIP passes so Madison and I could meet Jenny McCarthy and Jim Carey and I missed it :( I feel pretty down about it.
-We settle on our new house 1 week from today! Im so nervous something is going to go wrong. The bank is going to review our loan and laugh and say "oh we were just joking, you are not approved" There is so much to get done. Transfer BGE, Comcast, have the movers make an estimate. I wish my stimulus check would get here already!!!
-I hope when I updates this again its from MY HOUSE! | comments: 8 comments or Leave a comment   |
| This weather is making me so happy and excited!
Im taking Ruby and her tricycle out for a spin. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| Im going to be 29 in about 20 minutes and Im sitting at work. Im off tomorrow night which is cool. I never write in this thing anymore, but so much "stuff' is going on right now that I want to come back and read ---like the future me is going to want that, so Im looking out for her.
-Madison and Ruby are getting way too big, time is flying by way too fast. I miss my lil babies. Ruby will be 3 in less than a month and she is developing this amazing personality. I just wish she would go on THE POTTY!!
-Donald and I are buying a house. It has been a long process but we finally decided where we want to be. We put a contract on a house in Westminster on RUBY DR!! We settle in June. Here it is http://ambassadors2.maryland.remax.com/listings/ListingDetail_r4.aspx?LID=40126834&#
-Kristin is getting Married in June and I have lots of planning to do, parties, etc..Im so excited to see all my family together having a good time.
-Madison has had a very tough week. i think it has to do with the whole house buying process. She is excited about a new house and a new school, but change makes her anxious. I hope we get some good times together this summer.
Pictures of my babies---
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| I always would update this on Madison and Ruby's birthdays but I have been really neglecting my livejournal as of late.
Madison turned 8 yesterday and I was a proud mama. She was so happy and told all the teachers, administrator and kids at school yesterday that she is now 8 years old! Her assistant made her a large button with the number 8 on it. Donald, Ruby and I brought cupcakes to her school and gave them out at lunch time. After school we all went out to toys r us where we picked up her HUGE doll house. I like the one we got, it took some time for Donald to get it together, but it is awesome and she loves it so it was worth it. We went to Friendlys for dinner with Kristin, Sonny, and Betsy and she had an awesome time.
I just feel old lately. I now have an 8 year old WTF?!?!
I have been slacking with my camera lately, but tomorrow I am taking pictures of the kids.
We are buying a house and are meeting with our lender this week to look at the pre approval stuff. Im nervous, Im weird about permanent things..... | | comments: 8 comments or Leave a comment |
| I finally got around to figuring out how to put the videos from the video camera Kristin got Madison for x-mas onto my laptop.
I found some interesting little clips on there. I found one of Madison filming her hermit crab, filming her puzzles and random stuff from her point of view.
That is Ruby playing with her toy vacuum cleaner. I love how she is so serious and imitates the sound.
Life is going ok. Donald turns 34 on the 9th and I have nothing planned. He wants to go to a hockey game, but I dont know how many of his friends would be into that. Madison turns 8 on the 28th and she doesnt know what she wants to do for her birthday party, but she wants a limo involved?!?! | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| I need to remember this!
Tonight I gave Ruby her own chapstick cause her lips have been getting very badly chapped cause of the cold. I didnt know it was such a big deal to her. I remember when I was a kid and my dad bought me my own and I was so excited, now that I think of it I have no idea why it was such a big deal but I totally thought of it as lipstick.
When I gave it to Ruby the first thing she said is "lipstick?" and I said "yeah thats Ruby's lipstick" All night she has been putting it on and carrying it around. She keeps saying "LIPSTICK!!"
She was just jumping up and down and said "Ruby's lipstick, Ruby is beauuooootifulll." She is going to have the best self esteem!!
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| | Subject: | blarg | | Time: | 10:00 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/sad.gif) melancholy |
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| I know its lame to let a material possession get me so down, but I miss my camera so bad. I get so upset when I think about not having it. I miss being able to shoot pictures whenever I wanted and have them look the way I wanted.
Im going to get it fixed soon, I just feel so stupid that I get sad about an object. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| "Aunt Kristin bought me this gorgeous coat---isnt it beautiful?"
"...yeah I think so too!!"
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| My husband and I will be walking to help raise money for Autism research in DC on October 20th. This cause means a lot to us and our family. As most of you know Madison was diagnosed last year with Autism. Our hope is to raise money and awareness about the disease. Please join our team "Madison's super diva's" and walk with us or donate some money to the cause! Go to register, then join a team. If you have any questions just ask!
Some interesting facts.
-1 in 150 children are diagnosed with Autism.
-More children will be diagnosed with autism this year then with AIDS,diabetes and cancer combined.
-Leukemia affects 1 in 25,000/funding: $310 million
-Muscular Dystrophy affects 1 in 20,000/funding: $175 million
-Pediatric AIDS affects 1 in 8,000/funding:$394 million
-Juvenile Diabetes affects 1 in 500/funding:$130 million
-Autism affects 1 n 150/funding:$15 million
Walk Now For Autism unites the community in support of those affected by autism with a noncompetitive 5K walk and community resource fair, where parents meet a variety of autism service providers and kids enjoy arts & crafts, moon bounces and other fun activities. Experience the power of thousands united by a single cause by joining Walk Now For Autism: the fast-growing, family-friendly community dedicated to raising necessary funds for autism research, awareness and outreach. Join us at Walk Now For Autism!
https://www.kintera.org/faf/donorReg/donorPledge.asp?ievent=214840&lis=1&kntae214840=D0C7CB87087B4689AE05097EB78EBB92&supId=183214310 | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| I'm working and its been dead tonight, well not really, but stupid mundane bullshit.
I'm about to start the second disk of season 2 of The Wire---it makes me want to be a detective.
My head is hurting and my body is aching like I'm getting sick--fuck I dont want to get sick.
Today Ruby ran her little mouth off. Some days I cant get her into a conversation and others I cant get her to shut up. Today I was watching her play and she had her little friend Pablo (he's a stuffed penguin from a show she watches called the Backyardigans) she was sitting on the floor talking to him. I kept trying to make out the conversation she was having with him. She said "pabbbwow, you go shopping wid da doggies" "GO PABBBBWO GO!!" She was yelling at him to go shopping. Shes so bossy!
I stole these pictures from Kristin's flickr. My ladies at Hampden fest.
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| -My house is in a "shambles" right now--our hot water heater broke and leaked all the water out onto the kitchen floor and under the floor boards into the living room and into a closet full of stuff. They have been working on it for the last 3 days. we have no downstairs and its so friggin hot in there.
-I was in the paper http://www.baltimoresun.com/news/local/howard/bal-ho.call05aug05,0,5107367.story
-Monday Donald, kristin, Sonny, the kids and I went to the county fair--I had fun and I think the kids did too--Donald got down 1 Italian sausage, 1 German sausage and a corn dog. I was super stoked on my corn dog and funnel cake. Madison was fearless on the rides. Ruby danced her lil hiney off.
-Tomorrow Donald and I are going with Chris and Brittney to the Orioles game--hot dogs, nachos, drunken college dudes---I am into it!
-Can you tell Im hungry? | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| Donald and I will be walking to help raise money for Autism research in DC on October 20th. This cause means a lot to us and our family. As most of you know Madison was diagnosed last year with Autism. Our hope is to raise money and awareness about the disease. Please join our team "Madison's super diva's" and walk with us or donate some money to the cause! Go to register, then join a team. If you have any questions just ask!
Some interesting facts.
-1 in 150 children are diagnosed with Autism.
-More children will be diagnosed with autism this year then with AIDS,diabetes and cancer combined.
-Leukemia affects 1 in 25,000/funding: $310 million
-Muscular Dystrophy affects 1 in 20,000/funding: $175 million
-Pediatric AIDS affects 1 in 8,000/funding:$394 million
-Juvenile Diabetes affects 1 in 500/funding:$130 million
-Autism affects 1 n 150/funding:$15 million
Walk Now For Autism unites the community in support of those affected by autism with a noncompetitive 5K walk and community resource fair, where parents meet a variety of autism service providers and kids enjoy arts & crafts, moon bounces and other fun activities. Experience the power of thousands united by a single cause by joining Walk Now For Autism: the fast-growing, family-friendly community dedicated to raising necessary funds for autism research, awareness and outreach. Join us at Walk Now For Autism!
Follow This Link to visit the website.
https://www.kintera.org/faf/donorReg/donorPledge.asp?ievent=214840&lis=1&kntae214840=D0C7CB87087B4689AE05097EB78EBB92&supId=183214310 | | comments: Leave a comment |
| -Im working, it's 4:43 in the am and I cant stop looking at different photographers work on flickr and dreaming about going to art school.
-Maybe when Donald and I are millionaires I can take classes, until then Ill just read about it.
-I like this picture of my baby.
-Madison started risperdal this week. The doctor told me to have her take it with the adderall. I did this for the first 3 days then took her off the adderall today. When she just takes the risperdal she does so much better. I actually held a good conversation with her today. She didnt flip out when we told her we were'nt going to the pool today. She seems so much calmer and happy. I hope this works for her. She loves her Pop!
-We all went out for Kristin's 30th and we all took a ton of pictures, check out my flickr if you like.
-I have been filling out this medical history paperwork for Kennedy Kreiger for the last 2 hours for this appointment we have been waiting a whole year for. I don't even know if we will get to see the doctors cause already one has denied our insurance, I'm waiting on the other to deny us as well. The appointment is on Wednesday.
-I took a call tonight from a mentally challenged adult. He called 911 and hung up, so I called back. He answered right away and said "uhhh, Im sorry 911, I had a bad nose bleed but I called my mother and she told me just to pinch my nose and its probably my nerves so I don't need an ambulance" He sounded really upset like he had been crying so I just kept asking him if he was sure that he didn't want me to send anyone to stop by and maybe check on him. He explained to me that this was his first month on his own. He was 36 and has never lived away from his mom. He didn't want her to find out that he called for help. He told me what he cooked for dinner, and how he was good at some computer game. I just kept talking to him. I didn't want to hang up. He didn't sound lonely, but I was just nervous that he was living alone, which really is none of my business. At the end of the conversation he told me his nose had stopped bleeding and he was going to squeeze one more game in on his computer before going to bed. He thanked me for helping him with his nervousness. After I talked to him I walked outside to my car to get my charger for my phone and I started crying. I think its PMS. I'm just terrified about Madison's future. | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
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My kids were all about this show this morning. I watched the whole thing and couldn't stop laughing. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| Im so sick of my long hair, its never been this long in my 28 years of life. I want to get it all cut off tonight when Donald gets home. I need to find a good stylist that has a 6pm appointment available.
These are examples of what I want.
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This is our last morning alone together, just Ruby and me. It's Madison's last day of school. Not that I'm not excited for Madison to be out of school, but the alone time with Ruby is nice. It seems when its the two of them Im paying more attention to Madison.
Don't forget its fathers day Sunday. The kids are just going to make Donald things till I can afford the grill he wants. He will never know cause he never reads this shit.
I finally finished Lost season 3 and wow--I cant wait till February. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| I read this and liked it, honestly I hope I get to this point of thinking.
"Parents often report that learning their child is autistic was the most traumatic thing that ever happened to them. Non-autistic people see autism as a great tragedy, and parents experience continuing disappointment and grief at all stages of the child's and family's life cycle.
But this grief does not stem from the child's autism in itself. It is grief over the loss of the normal child the parents had hoped and expected to have. Parents' attitudes and expectations, and the discrepancies between what parents expect of children at a particular age and their own child's actual development, cause more stress and anguish than the practical complexities of life with an autistic person.
Some amount of grief is natural as parents adjust to the fact that an event and a relationship they've been looking forward to isn't going to materialize. But this grief over a fantasized normal child needs to be separated from the parents' perceptions of the child they do have: the autistic child who needs the support of adult caretakers and who can form very meaningful relationships with those caretakers if given the opportunity. Continuing focus on the child's autism as a source of grief is damaging for both the parents and the child, and precludes the development of an accepting and authentic relationship between them. For their own sake and for the sake of their children, I urge parents to make radical changes in their perceptions of what autism means.
I invite you to look at our autism, and look at your grief, from our perspective:
Autism is not an appendage
Autism isn't something a person has, or a "shell" that a person is trapped inside. There's no normal child hidden behind the autism. Autism is a way of being. It is pervasive; it colors every experience, every sensation, perception, thought, emotion, and encounter, every aspect of existence. It is not possible to separate the autism from the person--and if it were possible, the person you'd have left would not be the same person you started with.
This is important, so take a moment to consider it: Autism is a way of being. It is not possible to separate the person from the autism."- Jim Sinclair | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
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